I was aware at that time of being an Elder Entity, yet it was much more than I am. I can't describe it very well in human terms. You wouldn't believe me anyway. The Elder Being exists in many ways and places at once, god-like. In some way it appeared to be a smiling shield with round "Juganath" eyes held by two plumed serpents (all one being). No name...none needed. The Elder Being is still alive.
An image of this Entity is difficult to hold. His planet/dimension had a dark sky and bright lands. The sky was full of wriggling neon snow-like crystals that flashed on and off, and the atmosphere was faceted like a crystal finale on a chandler.
This experience was only accessed by a very peculiar group ritual. It involved astral structures, multiple states of consciousness in a very select group of thirty people. The very different thing about this ritual was that every individual's desire in the group had to be completely satisfied before making the jump, so you can imagine what went on previous to this.
Representations
The unknowable is often represented as a composite, even though one knows that this representation is not the actual appearance, i.e. Abraxas. The ancients did not believe the idol was the god/desses, it was used as a communications device. In this case it was the smiling shield with a Juganath eyes.
I still don't understand.
It was like I went to meet God/dess Enoch-like, but without the shielding, and I could not stay. I'm not claiming that this was God/dess, I'm just saying, "you just had to be there."